I understand that while I meet nearly all 12 criteria signs for opiod dependance at the current time,
a part of the assessment and review processs and based ony my own presentation of substance abuse history, there is a substantial amount of evidence that crystal methamphetamine has been the main cause of my legal issues and and admission into treatment centers and hospital admissions.
The fact still remains that I have developed a number of underlying mental health conditions inclduing depression, anxiety and a sense of hoplessness.
While I remain socially isolated and living under my current circumstances I willl continue to resort to escaping my reality through self medication of illicit substances.
Opiods will always be my drug of choice because it has become more easlily accessible,
I particpate in sleep and low key activities and do not endless nights awake engaged in meaningless drug induced psychosis.
I have spend 10 years desperately trying to be prescribed a stimulant type medication as I belived this was my silver bullet. It is time for a new option.
Based on my experience over the last year of enagaging in off label buprenorphine use while in prison, I strongly believed that if I am an not stuck in a constant cycle of chasing the next hit just to feel normal and not suicidal for an extended period of time, I could rebuild my life by engaging in study, participating a long terms therapeutic rehabilitation program and relearn basic life skills.
I have only been using prescirbed opiods for 6 weeks now and already the improvements in my life circumstances and outlook for the future is overwhelmingly positive.
I have also conducted a lot of academic research into the potential for OAT to help treat major depressive disorder and other underlying mentl health issues.